Even though it's not really anything to do with where I worship, it did have something to do with someone who I worship with. So yes, it had to do with a member of my church family.
No, I won't say who it is. Nor, will I tell you details about the whole issue.
I feel I need to say that even though I forgave the person for hurting me, I wondered if I should speak with the person. After all, God's Word, the Bible does tell us that it could and sometimes... should be done.
I must admit that I felt confused. Confused, as to whether or not I should speak with that person, regarding the issue.
So, I prayed about it. I prayed for the person. And, I prayed about the issue.
Within a couple of hours something happened.
It wasn't anything concerning the person I thought I would speak with. It was actually something that I believe God placed on my heart and mind.
What was it?
A song.
Just as you probably are aware, I believe God does speak with me, by using music. Just as I've told you about in the past, here on LwL.
At first, I thought it was funny that the song was on my heart and mind. It didn't leave me. In fact, I found myself singing it, over and over, and over again.
What was the song?
It's a Christmas song on YouTube entitled, I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus. Here is a link for you to listen to and/or sing along: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5T1isDKGa8. The lyrics are below.
I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus
I saw Mommy kissing Santa Claus
Underneath the mistletoe last night
Underneath the mistletoe last night
She didn't see me creep
Down the stairs to have a peek
She thought that I was tucked up in my bedroom fast asleep
She thought that I was tucked up in my bedroom fast asleep
Then I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus
Underneath his beard of snowy white
Oh what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night
Then I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus
Underneath his beard of snowy white
Oh what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night
Oh what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night
Are you shocked seeing this music? I was shocked having it inside me, on my heart and mind.
Until I realized that God was answering my prayer request from earlier, I just kept wondering why it was with me.
After praying and asking God to help me understand why the music was not leaving me, it occurred to me that the child who this song was about... showed everyone that the child was confused. It made me wonder why God would have me think of this.
Then, I realized I had asked God if I was confused. And, I realized that He was letting me know that He wanted to tell me about confusion.
People can laugh about confusion just like in the lyrics of the song. However, I realized that God didn't want me to think about my church group's person in a confusing way.
Thinking of this, made me think of 1 Corinthians 14:33, "For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints."
Amen! God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints.
Wow! This touched my heart.
I realized that the church family member didn't truly need me to approach and discuss the issue that I felt was so upsetting. After all, God is the author of peace, as in all churches of the saints. Yes, we who are all born again Christians, are considered saints... just as the Bible tells us.
So, I decided to not speak with the person, even though we would see each other at the Bible study group.
What a blessing it truly was.
Why?
I realized that God truly wanted me there, with the group and to not speak up to the person concerning the issue. He truly wanted me to be able to help the person who I had the issue with. And, I did.
So, even though I had already forgiven the person, I not only felt truly blessed, but the music stopped filling me, and I realized God was happy with my decision.
For this, I am truly thankful. And, always will be.
Thank You, Lord!
Until next time...
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