My Need...

If you read Life with Lynnie (LwL) last Friday, you'll know that on the day of my birthday, November 24th, I attended a funeral home visitation and service for my deceased husband Gordon's Aunt Gertrude.

After the service, I thought we would go to the cemetery.  I thought she would be buried.

She wasn't.

In fact, we were told that Aunt Gertrude would be buried at the cemetery the next day.  On Friday afternoon.

Wow!  To me, this was shocking!

We were all invited to leave the service and go to a room in the funeral home, where food and coffee would be provided.  No, this wasn't a meal.  However, there was nice items available.

I have to admit that it was shocking to me to enter the room where the food was being served.

Why?

It was the room where my husband Gordon was, during the visitation times, after he had died.

It wasn't just shocking going into the room.

I found it touched my heart, when I saw that where the table was with the food, was the same location where Gordon was laid out, in his casket.  :'(

Sigh...

When I saw this, I felt I needed God's grace.  I felt He needed to help me.

Thinking of this, brought to mind, Hebrews 4:16, "Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need."

Yes, we need to come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Need.  Yes, I had a need.

I needed God to help me.  I felt like crying.

Why?

I truly have no idea.  Except that I was reminded about losing my deceased husband, Gordon.

What did I do?

I silently prayed.  And, asked Him to help me... to not cry... to not feel sick in my heart.

He did help me.  I didn't cry.  But, I also didn't eat much of anything that was available.

I sat with a couple of ladies, and spoke with them. 

After a short time, I got up from the table to make my way out.  I stopped and said 'goodbye' to everyone there, including my daughters and Gordon's son, who were sitting together at a different table.

I have to admit, I praised God.

He helped me.  He provided for me.  And, He gave me the grace I needed during my time of need.

For this I will always be thankful.

Thank You, Lord!


Until next time...

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