Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Strength...

Today, here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), I'll discuss something that is rather personal.

As you are probably aware, I haven't been well.

If you know me, are a friend on Facebook (FB), or have read LwL for a while, you'll know that it is true.  I haven't been well, for quite a while, now.

In fact, since last year.

Even though I received medical treatment, I ended up spending nine (9) days in hospital.  This was in June.

Was I treated, while in hospital? 

No.  Not for what was ailing me.

Yes, I received tests.  Even after being released and sent home, I was sent for another test.

You may be aware that the surgeon who sent me for that test, told my daughter, P and I that even if I needed surgery, she wouldn't do it.

Why not?

The surgeon told my daughter, P and I that since I had that major surgery in London, Ontario a couple of years ago, where my muscles were used to reconstruct me, she felt that I should never, ever... be cut open, again.

Hearing this was upsetting to me.  But, then again, I don't really want to ever have to have anymore surgery.

I prayed that God would heal me.  I prayed that He would give me strength.

Why did I need strength?

Although it would be easy to suggest I was upset about being sick again, it wasn't emotional strength I truly needed.  I needed physical strength.

When I was at home again, I couldn't cook.  I couldn't lift much.

And, it wasn't easy to even open a can, so I could have some food.

I had other physical problems.  Even so, I can't discuss them.

But, please understand that I was truly weak.

Since then, God has answered my prayer.  Not yet... for full healing, since I am still in need of healing.  But, He gave me strength.  Just as I prayed for.

Thinking of how He helped me, brought to mind Psalm 18:32, "It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect."

Yes, He girded me with strength.  And, made my way perfect, during that horrible weakened state I experienced.

Does this mean I'm strong, now?

No.  I'm not as strong as I was before I had become truly ill.  But, I am sincerely almost strong enough to provide for my physical needs.  Most, yes.  Some, not yet.

Even so, I'm trusting Him.  And, always will.

I'm thankful He helped me improve enough to provide for myself, in some ways.  For this, I'll always be thankful.

Thank You, Lord!


Until next time...
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