Special...

Here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), I usually take the time to wish a family member... Happy Birthday!

Being July 31st, I normally would have done that.  However, knowing that it is my deceased husband's special day, I cannot really do that.

After all, he's not here on earth, to celebrate his birthday.  So, there's no point in wishing Gordon... Happy Birthday.

Does this sound awful to you?

If God had willed healing for Gordon, he would still be here.  But, he didn't receive worldly healing.  So instead, he's in Heaven with our Lord.  For this, I am grateful!

Am I alone in feeling like I'm not sure what to do on this special day?  Not really.

In fact, earlier this week, I spoke with a friend of mine, who is a widow.

She let me know that so many people think she shouldn't be missing her husband.  Their thinking relates to the fact that her husband is no longer suffering, and is also in Heaven.

Even so, she let me know that she misses him.  And, feels alone.

Not just when she's by herself.  But, even when she is spending time with many couples.  Couples... being people who have their spouses with them. 

She let me know that even during those times, she feels so very alone.

I let my friend know that her thinking is not strange.  I feel the same.  And, so do many other people.

You see, when you lose your spouse, it isn't always easy.  Not just because they are the other half of yourself.

It is truly not easy, when it is a special day.  Like today is to me, being Gordon's birthday.

Earlier this week, I wrote about what happened last Saturday.  At least, I let you know about the baby shower I attended.

What I didn't let you know, is that a friend of mine, who lives in the same apartment building I live in, died last Saturday.

It truly touched my heart when her son came on Facebook (FB) and let me know that she was no longer suffering here on earth.  In fact, I can say that it broke my heart.

Not for my friend.  Yes, she's no longer suffering here on earth.  Yes, she's in Heaven, with our Lord.

But, my heart broke for her husband, and her family.

I know they will suffer grief, the way many of us, do. 

Of course, at the moment, their grief may not yet have really begun.  At least, not further than the feeling of shock.

In my heart, I know they will feel the same way many of us feel, when we lose a loved one.  The broken heart won't quickly heal.

The good thing, is that we who are God's children, are taken care of by God.

Just as we read, in Psalm 34:18, "The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit."

Yes, our Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart.  And, He saves such who have a contrite spirit.  Or, brokenness, for those who don't understand what a contrite spirit is.

How grateful I am that our Lord, is with each and every one of us, who experiences loss.  Especially, loss of love, when a loved one's life here on earth, ends.

I will pray for them.  And, I'll pray for my friend who confirmed to me, that my thinking wasn't on it's own.

One thing I will always do, is thank my Lord, for loving me.  And, for being with me. 

After all, He will be with me, even 'til the end of the age.

By doing this, He makes me feel loved.  And, special. 

Thank You, Lord!


Until next time...

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