Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Heartbroken...

There was something else I didn't discuss in recent Life with Lynnie (LwL) entries.

It is the fact that while listening to the speaker on our Missions Sunday, tears began to flow.  My tears.

I'm not sure if anyone else felt the way I did.  But, I know that while I truly enjoyed their presentations, I also felt heartbroken.

Please don't misunderstand.  The presentations were wonderful.  Both, in our Bible study class, and during our worship service.

But, when it was mentioned that we need to pray and ask God if we will be led to do missions work, it made me cry.

Why?

When my now deceased husband Gordon was alive, we had planned to do missions work, together.  Meaning, after he and I were both retired.

Even when we travelled, we took New Testament Bibles with us, and/or tracts.  Any tracts taken, were in languages for the places we travelled to.

In addition, we both obtained our certificates to teach English as a Second Language (ESL), in order to help us obtain places to travel to and work for our Lord.  And, we both worked at teaching ESL as volunteers at our church.

Most of our students, were masters degree students at the University of Windsor (U of W), who were hoping to improve their English language and ability to verbalize.

Knowing that Gordon had worked wiring diesel locomotive train engines at the GM plant in London, ON, in addition to previous electrical work, meant he would probably be able to help by doing electrical work, in some places.  This, plus being able to do plumbing work, as well.

Together, we felt we could manage to secure some sort of position elsewhere in the world, to be able to do work for our Lord.  Just as you can imagine, we wanted to be doers of God's Word, and not just hearers, only.

Like we are told to be, in James 1:22, "But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves."

We wanted to be obedient to what we thought God was calling us to do.  This didn't happen.

Gordon died. 

With my health issues not being great, I haven't been able to do what we had planned to do for God.  And, probably won't be able to, unless He makes a way where there doesn't seem to be one, at this time.

Especially, since it seems that most full-time missionary positions (not temporary or vacation type missions trips), are filled by married couples.  Of which, I am not longer a part of.

Of course, nothing is impossible for God.  If He wills something of this sort of work for me, it will happen.

In the meantime, I find it heartbreaking that I haven't been able to do it, thus far.  Other than use my writing skills, in an effort to help others, give encouragement and show people how God works in our lives.

Even so, I am thankful for being used for work, honouring to Him.  And, always will be.


Until next time...

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