Anyone who has read Life with Lynnie (LwL) for quite a while, will know that today is another anniversary date.
Five (5) years ago this evening, was when Gordon collapsed, and was taken to hospital in an ambulance.
It was also the last day that I was able to speak with Gordon. And, hear his voice.
It was also the last day when I was able to hug him, and give him a kiss as I was leaving our apartment to do some things I needed to do.
Whenever I think of this, my heart breaks. And, tears flood my face.
Grief isn't easy. Nor, is life.
In fact, it's truly difficult. At least, to me. And, to some other people I know, also.
Whenever I feel emotionally weak like this, I think about how God loves me. And, helps me through the pain and sorrow I feel. Usually, by reading His Word, the Bible. And praying, of course.
Last evening, thinking about the bus collision and how it changed my life, I was happy that I'm reading the book of Romans. It's one of my favourite books of the Bible.
Thinking about today, and the pain I still feel regarding Gordon, it's simple to think about Jesus. And, how He suffered, here on earth.
Once again, I thought about how it was even prophesized that our Lord, Jesus Christ would come to earth and suffer.
Just as we read in Isaiah 53, 1-12 "Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?
2 For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.
3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.
7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.
8 He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.
9 And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.
10 Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.
11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors."
Just because we are Christian, doesn't mean that our lives will be perfect. The truth is, our lives will never be perfect.
Just as Jesus suffered, we will suffer.
Still, I'm grateful that He hath borne our griefs, carried our sorrows. It was planned that He would be wounded for our transgressions, bruised for our iniquities. Yet, by His stripes we are healed.
We have gone astray. Yet our iniquity was laid on Him. He was oppressed, afflicted himself, yet He didn't open his mouth and complain.
Of course, He's God. We're only human. So, it's normal for us to not be perfect like He was and still is.
It pleased God to bruise Him, put Him to grief, yet He was to pour out His soul unto death. Which He did.
He died for the sin of many. And, made intercession for the transgressors.
In other words, He died for us. We are all transgressors, until we come to Christ for our salvation.
Jesus died for us... who trust in/believe upon Him.
He suffered and died, in obedience to God the Father, who created this plan of redemption for us. To save us from sin. To save us from Hell.
And, to provide eternal life for us.
While this is a sad day for me, I am truly grateful to my Lord. And, always will be.
Until next time...
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