As I've mentioned in the past, here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), today is a special day.
Even though my now deceased husband Gordon and I were married on March 29th, it was on the Saturday of Easter weekend. Like today.
Here is something I partially wrote a couple of years ago, and never got around to posting here on LwL:
A long time ago, here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), I wrote about how God put the Eagles' song Desperado, on my heart for quite a while.
At first, I couldn't even bring myself to think about the lyrics, because in my subconscious, I already knew what God was telling me. I suppose I could say I didn't want to face it. Reality, that is.
The reality is that I was keeping myself locked up in a prison of my own making. All I really wanted was what I couldn't have.
After I gave Gordon's clothing and dresser away to friends and family, I finally felt like I could think about that song.
When I finally did allow myself to listen to the song and be fully reminded of the lyrics, I knew that God had been urging me on, to try and live again. Without Gordon.
How could I do this? It seemed I didn't know how.
I didn't worry about it. Instead, I just prayed about it and left it with God. If there's one thing I know for sure, it is that my Lord, Jesus Christ loves me and will never let me down.
Does this mean that I no longer love my now deceased husband?
Of course not. I love him. But, the reality is that Gordon is dead. He isn't coming back, no matter how much I want him to. No matter how much I pray. No matter how much I cry. No matter how broken hearted I am.
My relationship may be over with Gordon, but I know that love never dies. In my heart, part of me will always love him.
But, it's time to move on. It's time to allow God to heal me fully, so I can try to rebuild a life for myself and learn to live again.
As the lyrics of Desperado say, you better let somebody love you, before it's too late.
Yes, we must allow love into our lives. Just as I wrote about so long ago, and shared with you, above here.
The most important love, is not on a human level. The most important love, is of God.
After all, now that I am a widow, He is my husband.
Just as we read in John 15:1, "I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman."
No matter how hard life is, or how lonely life on earth can become, we are truly not alone.
Yes, He became my husband, once I became widowed. He takes care of me. Just as He takes care of all who belong to Him.
If you aren't yet trusting in our Lord, Jesus Christ, then please read the New Testament portion of God's Word, the Bible. In the book of John, you'll see that you must be born again, in order to be guaranteed to spend eternity in Heaven.
In case you're not aware, to be born again, or saved, you must trust/believe upon our Lord, Jesus Christ for your salvation.
Hopefully, God will touch your heart as you read. Please, let Him love you. Before it's too late!
If this happens and you become saved, I'll see you in Heaven, one day. Just as I'll see my now deceased husband, and other relatives and friends who are there, waiting for me.
Until next time...
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