Tuesday, February 25, 2014

H.B. N! & Bearing Witness...

Before I begin today's Life with Lynnie (LwL) entry, I would like to wish my grandson N, a very Happy Birthday!  I'm looking forward to seeing you, later today.  :)

While I feel badly discussing my health situation once again, I feel I must do so.

After all, LwL is meant to encourage others.  And, help people know and understand that even if we are suffering in life, God is with us.

He's with us, always!

He made many promises to us, His children.  But, He also told us that we will experience fiery trials in life.

And, that's precisely what I am going through, now.

When I say fiery, I mean fiery.  Not only is my life at risk, but I have experienced so very much pain continuously, that there are times when I wonder if it will ever end.

Of course, I know it will.  Either here on earth, or when I am taken to Heaven.

Meanwhile, I have been suffering big time, with pain.  Especially, over the past while.

Whenever my nurse comes, she removes my bandage.  Then she removes the packing inside my incision.

She rinses and tries to promote drainage by putting pressure on the area in question.  After cleaning, she then repacks me, before placing a new bandage on me.

The pain of repacking isn't fun.

In the past, I've had several nurses have to do this work, after I had been cut open.  However, I've never experienced the intense pain that I've had, recently.

For some reason, when I have been repacked, I've had stabbing pain.  Pain and fiery burning, that radiates across my gut. 

This past weekend, my regular nurse was off.  My replacement nurse came both Saturday and Sunday.

On Sunday, she decided to measure the depth of my incision, once again.

When she looked inside me, she became shocked.  She saw tunneling.  Meaning, I was open with a hole, running from my incision, over towards where the abscess is located.

She measured the tunneling as best she could.  And, she let me know it was five and three-quarters centimeters (5 3/4 cm) across my gut, under my skin.

This meant that instead of her packing just my incision, she intended to also pack the tunneling, also.

Boy!  The pain was so bad, I even spoke aloud.  No, I didn't yell.  But, I felt like I wanted to!

I must admit, that I am feeling sick and tired of suffering.

However, when I feel like this, I remind myself that as a child of God, I will suffer. 

Just as God told us, in Romans 8:16-17, "The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:  And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together."

How grateful I am that God has made me part of His family.  That as His child, I am an heir, and a joint-heir with Christ.

Eventually, I will be glorified together with Him.

In the meantime, I must continue to trust God for my healing.  In every way.

Just so you know, the hospital's emergency room (ER) doctor who saw me last Thursday evening, confirmed to me that the abscess seemed to be "communicating" with my incision.  Meaning, that there was a connection.  Somehow, tunneling was there.

At that time, I asked him if draining the ABSCESS would heal me.  Or, if I would need surgery, once again.

He replied that he believed that draining it would only provide temporary relief.

In his opinion, I would need surgery in the future.  And, I would need to have the mesh inside me removed.

Once again, I will ask you to please pray for me.

If you are willing, please lift me in prayer, so that God will continue to encourage me, through this horrible trial I have been experiencing.  And, provide the healing I require.

Please know that I am thankful to you.  Understand that I pray for you, also.  And, pray that God will bless you, my friend.

Until next time...

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