In yesterday's Life with Lynnie (LwL) entry, I told you about what I did on the day of New Year's Eve. Well, only what I did during the afternoon and early evening.
After leaving my daughter P's home once our celebration of my grandson S's birthday was over, I made my way to visit a friend's brother, J... who had a stroke a while back. Of course, if you read yesterday's LwL entry, you'll be aware of this.
When I left Windsor's west side, it was about 7:15 p.m. Since I had not eaten since early in the day other than a piece of birthday cake, I was hungry.
While driving towards home, I decided I was too tired to cook anything at home. So, I decided to pick up pizza.
I had already passed the area where my favourite pizza is made, so I didn't go there. Instead, I stopped at a pizza place close to home.
No, I won't say where it was I stopped at. I will say that it was about the worst pizza I ever had! Yuch!! :(
About 8:30 p.m., I was sitting in my recliner chair, watching some television (TV). Just thinking about how awful the year of 2013 had been for me, made me feel rather low in spirit.
After all, there I was... sitting all alone. With no one to celebrate the coming midnight ball drop in New York City.
All of a sudden, I felt overcome with grief, once again.
Why this happens to me from time to time, I do not know. But, it happened to me that evening.
And, I truly felt sick in my heart.
It was then, that I decided that would be the last day that I would want to look back. There was no way that I wanted to hurt any more.
Feeling I needed to move forward with my life, I decided that 2014 would be MY year.
It would be a year for me to not look back, any longer.
It would be a time for me, to take that extra deep breath and move forward with my life.
Thinking of all this, brought to my mind... Philippians 3:13-14, "Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."
Anyone who knows what it is like to suffer greatly in life, understands that it isn't an easy thing to leave the past in the past. Especially when your life is still in a fallen apart condition.
For sure, I know this is truth. But, I decided to trust God.
Yes, I know... I already do trust Him. But, I mean this in a different context.
In the past, I've already convinced myself that God will restore my life. It just hasn't happened, yet.
Even so, I will look to Him daily, to do for me what He did for others.
Think about Joseph. Look at the trials he went through, and how he suffered. Yet, it was part of God's plan to restore his life. And, He did restore it.
Most people know about what happened to Job.
There have been times when I've felt like a female Job. If you know the truth about my life, you'd be aware that it has truly been destroyed over the years. Not unlike Job's. Maybe not the same things happened to him that happened to me, but similar in context.
God restored Job's life.
And, I'm trusting He will restore mine.
So, I prayed. And, climbed into bed about 9:30 p.m. New Year's Eve.
Leaving 2013 behind, was a good thing. I'm trusting God for everything in my life, through 2014.
I will continue to press on, towards the mark for the prize of the high calling of God, in Christ Jesus.
And, may He bless you, your family and your ministry (if you have one!), throughout this year... as you trust in Him.
Until next time...
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