Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Beautiful...

On October 23rd, I mentioned here on Life with Lynnie (LwL) that this date was the anniversary of my dad's death.  And, that even though we didn't have the best relationship, I miss and love him.

Just so you know, I posted that entry at 12:30 a.m.  Which tells you that I wrote and published it prior to me heading to sleep that night.  Or maybe I should say, that morning!

Something different happened to me, while I was asleep.  In fact, a couple of things.

First, I must tell you that here in Ontario, Canada we are in the Eastern Standard Time Zone (EST) for part of the year, and are in the Eastern Daylight Time Zone (EDT) for the rest of the year.  Just as we are now, until November 3rd.  Here's a map for you to check out: 
http://www.timeanddate.com/news/time/usa-canada-end-dst-2013.html

Just so you know, our EDT used to be for a shorter period of time.  However, it was extended a couple or so years ago.  So now, instead of ending in October, it ends in November as I just mentioned.

In the past, something used to happen to me about 6:15 a.m. on October 23rd, every year.  I used to wake up. 

It was disheartening to me to do this, because I couldn't understand why I would wake up at the approximate time of my dad's death.  But, I did.  Every year.  Except possibly last year.

Last year, I was so ill after having that emergency surgery, that I cannot even recall if I awoke, or not.

This year, was different.

I didn't wake up at 6:15 a.m.  I woke up at 5:15 a.m. 

At the time, I couldn't understand why I would wake up at that time.  And, being tired, I just went back to sleep.

When I awoke later, it was not at 6:15 a.m., it was at my normal time.  At the time, I didn't really think about how different my night's sleep was, compared to years in the past.

When I was asleep and even as I awoke, a song resonated in my heart and mind. 

It's a song written by Daniel Boone & Rod McQueen.  And, sung by Daniel Boone.

Listen to it, here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K37BhzM0I8I.  And, here are the lyrics...

Beautiful Sunday

Sunday morning, up with the lark
I think I'll take a walk in the park
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
 

I've got someone waiting for me
When I see her I know that she'll say
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
 

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my it's a beautiful day
 

Birds are singing, you by my side
Let's take a car and go for a ride
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
 

We'll drive on and follow the sun
Makin' Sunday go on and on
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
 

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

 
Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my it's a beautiful day...



In my mind, I had to wonder why this song was continuously playing inside me.  After all, it wasn't Sunday!

I prayed about this. 

Psalm 5:1-4 came to mind, " Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my meditation.
Hearken unto the voice of my cry, my King, and my God: for unto thee will I pray.
My voice shalt thou hear in the morning, O Lord; in the morning will I direct my prayer unto thee, and will look up.
For thou art not a God that hath pleasure in wickedness: neither shall evil dwell with thee."

After praying about it, a thought came to mind.  I wondered if this had been a message to me, from heaven.

When I spoke about it being the anniversary of my dad's death, I had also said I missed him and loved him. 

Yes, I had long ago forgiven him.  And, I miss him and love him.

About the same time, I realized that at the time of my dad's death, we were not on EDT, but was still noted as EST.  Meaning that had we been on EST today, as we were when my dad died, it truly would have been 6:15 a.m. when I awoke.

Was this a message from dad?  God?  I wondered if it was dad or God telling me that because I had forgiven dad and love him, there was happiness in heaven... relating it to being a beautiful day

Who knows?  Only God knows.

However, just as He told us in verse 4, God does not take pleasure in wickedness.  And, He won't let evil dwell in us, His children.

Since I do not know for sure if my dad is in heaven or not, I am trusting God that he is.  And, praying this for my mom, also.

Yes, I know... once we've had our final breath here on earth, there is no changing where we will spend eternity.  So, I know that no matter how much I pray, it will not change where my parents are.

However, this does not mean that I can't trust God for my heart's desire.  I'm trusting!


Until next time...

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