Thursday, October 10, 2013

He Did What?!

Here on Life with Lynnie (LwL) from time to time, I've discussed my now deceased husband, Gordon.

If you have read LwL for any length of time, or if you know me personally, you'll know that it was four (4) years ago today, when Gordon died.

At 12:30 a.m. on October 10th, 2009, the hospital pronounced him dead.  This was after they had removed him from life support.

His situation was very different from when my mom was disconnected from life support.  When my mom's life was ended, there was no hope for her.  There was no way she could have lived.

Gordon's situation was not the same.  Yes, he was on life-support.  However, daily... he was improving.

The nurses confirmed to me that my daughter P's suggestion that Gordon was stabilizing, was correct. 

However, those in control didn't want him to wake up, even though I kept praying he would. 

They were afraid that if he woke up, he would be a vegetable.  This is what they told us, even though no one could tell us if that would definitely happen, or not.

So, they took away my right, to decide to keep him alive in the Intensive Care Unit (ICU) of the hospital.  And, disconnected him.

I've since forgiven those who were in control of the situation.  And, pray that God will save each one, if they aren't already saved.

Even so... I cried then.

And, still do, now.

I feel I've made my way through grief.  Certainly, enough to feel I need to move forward with my life.  But, it still makes me weep. 

Am I alone thinking and doing this?  Absolutely, not.

God told us in John 11:35, the shortest verse in the Bible, that "Jesus wept."

Of course, Jesus' grief for Lazarus was very different from mine.  He was God... in the flesh. 

And, proved Himself to others, by raising Lazarus from the dead, and calling him out of the grave, where he had been buried for days.

Unfortunately, I am only human.  I'm not God.  And, certainly could not do that for Gordon.  Or, for anyone else.

Still, I'm grateful that one day, I will see Gordon, again.  In heaven.

For this, I'm grateful.

Grateful that while we were yet sinners, Jesus died for us... giving us eternal life, when we trust/believe upon Him.

If you wonder how you can be saved, just read Acts 16:31.


Until next time...

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