As I mentioned here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), God has truly provided comfort for me. Especially, since I've been facing terrible trials in life.
Yesterday, I came across this entry that I had written a while ago; in early September, actually. It was at a time, when I still had my original surgeon working with me, here in Windsor.
To be honest, I thought I had posted it, but after checking things out, I realized I hadn't. Somehow, it had gotten lost. So, I'm posting it, today!
Going through this trial, where I've been facing the possibility of my life ending, if I don't have surgery before the infection inside me spreads to my organs, hasn't been easy. Even so, I am grateful that He is there, for me.
I wrote a while ago, that I had seen a surgeon in Las Vegas, Nevada, USA.
Even though he was very helpful to me, and gave me information that I didn't know existed, I realized that there was no way I could have him do the surgery I need. Why?
He doesn't use mesh, when he does reconstructive surgery.
Prior to me seeing him, I thought it might be better to have a surgeon not use mesh. After all, the mesh inside me is infected and must be removed.
However, after having him show me a printout of my last two (2) CT scans, and after discussing my situation, I realized that I needed to have mesh used, once again. This time, instead of the regular type mesh that can become infected, the surgeon would have to use BIOMESH, that won't.
Here is a link where you can read more about BIOMESH, if you like: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biomesh.
You're probably wondering why I realized I needed mesh used inside me, once again.
After examining me, he and his physician assistant (PA) helped me sit up, from where I had been laying on the examination table. And, I went and sat in a chair.
It was then, when we discussed my physical needs. Please bear with me, as I explain what we talked about.
Looking at the printout of my last two (2) CT scans, he pointed out that in the second (2nd) last one, I still had a drainage tube, since we could see what they call a 'pig tail' that showed up in the scan. Then, he pointed out the results of my last CT scan, commenting that it was done after the drainage tube had been removed. I agreed, because it had been.
He asked me if I saw any difference, to which I replied that I truly didn't, except that the area showing what was being drained seemed to be either the same size or slightly larger. He agreed.
Then, he explained that the area being drained had indeed not been drained. And, being an abscess, he was concerned.
He asked me why my surgeon in Windsor had not taken me into the operating room and surgically removed the ABSCESS, that was inside me.
At the time, I replied that I didn't know. But, after giving it some thought, I believe it may have been because my current surgeon didn't want to remove the mesh inside me. After all, he doesn't do this type of surgery. And, this is exactly why I need a surgeon who is capable of doing this.
Still, it was shocking.
ABSCESS??? I hadn't realized it was an abscess.
Immediately, I understood the danger of having an abscess. You can read a little about them, here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abscess.
The Las Vegas surgeon continued on explaining, letting me know that even though I had been on those super-antibiotics intravenously for several weeks, it had been a waste of time. He agreed that they were strong, but not strong enough to fight off both the abscess AND the staph infection MRSA, that I had picked up in the operating room.
In his opinion, I needed to have immediate surgery, to remove the abscess. Then, be put back on the super-antibiotics intravenously, which would then be strong enough to get the MRSA under control.
He made it clear, I should not wait. It should be done, right away... before the infections spread to my organs.
Then, he told me something else. He pointed out a thin line on the CT scan, which he told me was my stomach muscle, that really should be thicker.
He then explained that the reason I feel like I don't have any stomach muscles, is because my stomach muscle is so very thin, that I virtually don't have any/much.
Why this is, I never asked. However, I believe it may be due to the fact that over the past year of surgeries, etc., I have not been able to do bending, lifting, stretching, carrying weight, etc., just as I had been directed to not do.
Knowing that when he does reconstruction, he uses muscle... I realized that he was not the right surgeon to assist me. Unfortunately.
I truly felt blessed seeing him. And, was grateful for all he told me.
But, when I left there, as I've written about in the past, I felt a myriad of emotions. The reason why, I won't discuss, here.
However, when I went to Toronto last week, and saw the surgeon at Sunnybrook Hospital, I felt that God had indeed provided for me.
As it turned out, the Toronto surgeon does use BIOMESH, to reconstruct. And, he was willing to do my much needed, rather dangerous surgery.
For this, I praised God! And, was reminded about how God never fails us, His children.
Just as His Word tells us in Deuteronomy 31:8, "And the Lord, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed."
While I could go into detail about what I am going to say, I would prefer not to, at this time. Instead, I will just let you know that God provided for me in another way.
As it turns out, I will not have to travel to Toronto to have the surgery done. Nor, will I have to travel there, for post-op medical care.
You see, he will be coming to my city, Windsor, Ontario... and will work with my current surgeon (who replaced my original surgeon here in Windsor), and do my surgery at the same local hospital, where I have been throughout this ordeal.
Upon hearing all this, I felt truly uplifted. And, thankful!
God provided for me, in a way I never dreamed possible. And, showed me that He was truly in control of the whole situation.
He didn't forsake me. He didn't fail when it came to my need. He was with me, always. Just as He said He would be.
I cannot praise Him enough!
However, I must say that had I not been one of His children, this may not have been the case.
He may not have lifted me up daily, throughout this horrid trial. He may not have provided for me, in ways I never expected. And, He may not have provided a plan of healing for me.
I am truly grateful that I am His child!
If you are not yet trusting in Jesus Christ, and the finished work He did at the cross for you, for me, and for all the world, of all who will believe upon Him, please... come to Him, today. You're not guaranteed tomorrow.
Believe upon the Lord, Jesus Christ, and you shall be saved (Acts 16:31).
Until next time...
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