Thursday, September 19, 2013

H.B.! & The Shadow...

Here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), there are days when I honour people and/or special days.  Today, is one of those days.

Today, is the birthday of a family member.  Happy Birthday!

If my mom were alive, it would also be her birthday.  I love you, Mom... and miss you.

The way things have been going, regarding my need for surgery, it seems I may see you sooner than either of us thought.  If it is God's will.

On Wednesday, September 11th, after I parked my van, I walked through the parking garage, to enter the building where I live.

Enroute, I ran into an older gentleman.  He asked me if I had yet found a surgeon.  I let him know that indeed, I had.

For you who are not aware of this, I had met with a Toronto surgeon at his hospital office, on Thursday, August 29th.

He agreed to do my surgery.  More about this, another time.

The gentleman neighbour said he was happy for me.  And, he let me know that he wanted to tell me something, but not until I had found a surgeon.

He let me know that he had a friend.  His friend had surgery at the same hospital as I had twice last year.

He told me that like me, his friend got the staph infection MRSA while in the operating room.  And, he also had an abscess.  Like me.

I cannot recall if I told you I have an abscess, or not.

When I had seen an American surgeon in Las Vegas, was when I found out that I had an abscess, and not just another pocket of fluid inside me.

Please forgive me.  And, know that I would have loved to have told you everything I have found out about my need for surgery.  However, not wanting to cause or contribute to any complications, I have not done so.

So much like this gentleman's friend, I am being poisoned daily by the abscess, and my body is trying to fight off complications from the MRSA.

He told me that his friend kept having his surgery postponed.  Over and over.  Like me, he had been told that he needed surgery, as soon as possible.

But, it didn't happen for him.

After having his surgery date postponed many times, he finally made it into the operating room.  The surgeon opened him up, to find that even though the abscess and MRSA hadn't yet caused his organs to shut down his body, they had indeed spread throughout his abdomen, covering his organs.

The operation was not done.  Apparently, his body was left the way it had been, and he was closed up.  And, was sent home, to die.

Hearing this, I felt badly for the gentleman who related this to me.  He missed his friend, and let me know that he was hoping I would have my surgery, soon.

I thanked this gentleman for the information, and let him know that I felt badly for him, and for the deceased friend's family.

Then, as I made my way through the foyer into the elevator, I began thinking about what I had just heard.  I felt like I was walking through the shadow of death.

I thought of Psalm 23:4, "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."

Yes, what I heard was rather upsetting to me.  But, it wasn't something I didn't already know could happen. 

After all, I had now heard from three (3) surgeons that I needed to have surgery, as soon as possible.  And, it had been explained to me that if the infections inside me spread to my organs, I would die.

But, even though it was upsetting, I reflected upon Bible verses, including the one I quoted here, today.

Indeed, it seems I am walking through the valley of the shadow of death.  Like what the verse says, I will fear no evil. 

Even though I have times when I feel alone, being a widow... with no one to talk with, pray with, enjoy Bible reading time with and more, I know that I am truly not alone.

After all, I know that my Lord, Jesus Christ comforts me, and is with me.  Always. 

He promised, when He told us... His children, that He would never leave us, nor forsake us, that He would be with us always, even to the end of the age. 

I am trusting in Him.

Once again, I must say to you, that if Jesus is not your Saviour, you are headed to spend eternity in Hell.  If you come to Jesus, and trust in/believe upon Him, you will be saved.  And, you will then spend eternity in Heaven.

Hopefully, I'll see you, there!


Until next time...

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