Tuesday, June 18, 2013

On The Sparrow...

On Saturday's Life with Lynnie (LwL) entry, I posted information I had faxed to my surgeon/doctor. 

If you read what was written, you'll know that I requested that if he could not locate a qualified doctor in the Toronto area, who could do my needed surgery immediately, that he should contact OHIP (Ontario Health Insurance Plan) and request permission for them to pay to have me be sent out of province and/or Canada.

Whether or not OHIP will actually do this, is another story.

I must admit, that when I have heard about this happening with the odd situation, I was happy for the person involved.  But, I was also heartbroken for me.

If you have read my book, Love Never Fails You... you'll be aware that I fought the system and tried everything in my power, to obtain permission to take Gordon out of Canada, to have either Gamma Knife or Cyber Knife Radio Surgery done on him.

This treatment that would have blown apart the tumour he had in the centre of his head, sitting on his brain stem, was only available in Canada in three (3) cities.  In addition, it was only available to those who were confirmed cancer patients. 

Believe me when I say there are people here in Canada, who could not be confirmed cancer patients.  Like Gordon.  After all, he couldn't have done the necessary biopsy, for the same reason he couldn't have surgery.  It would have left him a vegetable.

The only alternative treatment for Gordon, was to take him out of the country.  Michigan was the closest place where it was available, but if that couldn't have been, I would have taken him to China, India, or anywhere on this earth.

But, it didn't happen.  Our system didn't help him.  As I wrote in my book, I felt that we were facing a Glass Wall.  We could see treatment, but couldn't access it.

It's possible that now I will face that same situation.

In my opinion, the chances of me being helped through our OHIP system, are slim. 

Anyone who knows me, will understand when I say that I believe our healthcare system is good.  But, only if you have the flu, or are ill with something simple.  It seems that anyone facing a difficult situation, seems to get lost in the system.  The loss is then buried.  And, forgotten.

Then again, nothing is impossible for God.  He may make a way where there isn't one for me, to be taken where the surgery I need can be done, immediately.

Time will tell.

To be sure, God will provide.  One way or another.

Please, do not think I am terrified of dying.  I'm not.  I know where I'll go, once my life has ended on this earth.

Does this mean I feel I am ready to go?  It's not that I wouldn't want to go be with my Lord, Jesus Christ, but I feel like my work here on earth is not finished, yet. 

He may feel differently.  If He does, I won't be here, long.

I believe a Facebook (FB) friend of mine, who is a fellow blogger who writes Views of My Life, could tell I needed encouragement, Saturday evening.  He posted a link to a song sung by Ethel Waters entitled, His Eye Is On The Sparrow.

As I listened to the song, I thought about verses in the Bible that spoke about this very thing:  Matthew 6:25-33, "Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

I thank my FB friend who sent me the link for the song.  I appreciated the encouragement.

And, I thank each and every relative and friend, in real life and through the internet, for the loving Christian support and prayer that I have been receiving.

May God bless each and every one of you.

Sooner or later, God will reveal to us, what will happen to me.  Will my life continue?  Or, not? 

Until we know the answer, I will carry on seeking first the kingdom of God and all it's righteousness.

Until next time...

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