Thursday, June 20, 2013

Monday's Dilemma...

In yesterday's Life with Lynnie (LwL) entry, I wrote about locating a couple of surgeons that I thought may be suitable for the surgery I need.

When I spoke by telephone with my current surgeon/doctor on Monday afternoon, he told me that he had already made a referral to a surgeon, in Toronto.  And, he gave me his name.

I mentioned to him that I had done some searching and had come up with the name of a surgeon in the Toronto area, also.  I truly thought he would be happy that I was assisting in trying to locate someone who is not only capable, but accessible, soon.

Instead, my surgeon was upset with me.  Sigh...

After some discussion, I agreed to wait and hear back from the physician he had made a referral to.  And, only if he couldn't see me soon enough, did my surgeon/doctor agree to consider the surgeon I had located in the Toronto area.

In addition, I told him about locating a surgeon in USA.  Once again, he sounded rather annoyed.

I'm sure that I'm a rare breed of person, researching to help locate a surgeon.  After all, our healthcare system doesn't allow us to contact specialists, directly.

A referral has to be made by a general practitioner (GP), another specialist, or by hospital physicians.  Period.  No ifs, ands, or buts.

He made it clear that our Ontario Health Insurance Plan (OHIP) would NOT cover the cost of my surgery, outside our province.

Once again, I felt like I was in shock!  Why not?... is what I thought, and asked, while commenting that I read about people in my city being taken to Detroit, MI, USA for treatment and/or surgery. 

My surgeon replied that some people with heart concerns or some other issues have been granted permission.  But, for my condition and required surgery, OHIP would not give permission.

Sigh...  Although I didn't comment aloud, in my mind, I thought to myself... Here we go again, battling the Glass Wall of our healthcare system, that contributed to my husband Gordon's death. 

Now, it's me who will possibly lose my life, due to the Glass WallSeeing treatment, but not being able to access it.  Unless of course, God makes a way where there isn't one.

I prayed.

And, a Bible verse came to mind.  1 Corinthians 10:13, "There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it."

Believe me when I say I was tempted to lose my temper over this heartbreaking situation.  But, I didn't. 

God gave me the strength to stay calm, and friendly, with my surgeon/doctor.  Even after getting off the phone, I didn't fall apart.

I believe it is because He made a way for me to cope with the situation, by trusting in Him, and in His Word that directs our path.

I realize I must remain faithful and trust God. 

I believe Him.  And, I believe His Word.  He will make a way for me, to be able to bear this situation.  I'm trusting Him for this.

In the meantime, I will take a deep breath once again, and pray.


Until next time...

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