As I wrote yesterday on Life with Lynnie (LwL), my Easter celebration with my family wasn't exactly what I had hoped for. But, considering that I spent last Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas, New Year's and Valentine's Day alone, I felt blessed just being able to see most of my family.
In case you haven't been reading LwL long, the reason I spent all those other special days alone, was due to illness. Either my family being sick, or me being either sick or recovering from surgery. Hmmm... maybe I should say... surgeries, since I've had two (2) operations in the last seven (7) months.
It may sound like I am healed now to some people, but the truth is, I am not.
My incision that opened up once again, after having the last surgery, has healed, now. But, the pain and swelling is still with me. Even if the swelling is less, the pain is not.
To be honest, I'm sick of being sick.
Most people wouldn't have a clue looking at me, that I am not well. But, the truth is, I am not up to snuff.
I still cannot lift most things. When I carry anything, I usually place the item in a tote bag and have to hang it on a cane, to help me transport whatever it is, to wherever it is going.
Does this mean I don't hurt myself doing stuff like this? Absolutely, not. I do feel pain. And usually, I suffer for it, later.
When I think about all the suffering I've experienced in my life, and not just lately, I sometimes feel overwhelmed. Then, I usually take a deep breath and remind myself that even though I am not a perfect person, I have the righteousness of Christ within me. Because... I'm saved by trusting in Jesus for my salvation.
Please understand, I am not righteous in and of myself. My righteousness is as filthy rags, and so is yours, according to God's Word, the Bible. But, Jesus has made me righteous.
Thinking about this reminded me of Psalm 34:19, " Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."
Yup! Many are the afflictions of the righteous. I know this to be true.
Like I've said in the past, I've had many more afflictions than I would ever want, and wouldn't even wish on my worst enemy.
Still, I trust in my Lord. After all, He promised to deliver me... and others like me, out of them all.
While I am truly sick of being sick, and feeling weary from time to time, I will continue to trust my Lord, until I have been delivered.
Until next time...
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