Who Am I?

In yesterday's Life with Lynnie (LwL) entry, I wrote about rejoicing.  Always.

This isn't always the easiest thing to do.  But, it is something we must do, if we want to be obedient to God.

It certainly hasn't been easy for me.  Especially, with dealing with ill health and surgeries that haven't provided healing that I need.

Over about the last week or so, I have been bombarded with a question from both real-life and cyber-life friends.   I must admit, I've found it to be rather upsetting. 

'Why aren't you healing?', is what most people are asking.

My response has always been the same.  "I don't know.  Only God knows!"

Please understand that I don't normally question God in this way.  But, during the course of this trial, I have cried out and asked Him why this is happening to me.  And, why I am not healing.

Even though I've had plenty of time to relax and wait for a response from God, I haven't yet received one.  There is one thought that comes to mind, though.

I've wondered, if possibly He has put on my mind the same Bible verse that He used when responding to Job.  I've wondered if possibly, this is His response to me.

God tells us in Job 38:4, "Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth? declare, if thou hast understanding."

To some people this may not mean much, but to me, it does. 

After all, God is the person who created all things.  The earth, the sky, water, land, animals, and even people. 

He is in control of everything that happens in our lives.  Not me.  I'm not in control, as you probably recall me saying many times, in the past.

Whenever I think of that verse, I think about why God said this to Job.

Who am I to question God?  About my life.  About what happens to me.  About anything.

I am nobody.  Nothing.  Except His child.  One who loves Him.  But, I do not have any control over this trial, or any others, in my life.

Just as you don't have control over the trials you experience.

So, what can we do?  What can I do?  Nothing.

Just trust in Him.


Until next time...

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