Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Painfully Trusting...

If you've read recent entries in Life with Lynnie (LwL), you'll know that I began to drive again, the other day.

Once my nurse told me she was going to discharge me, because there wasn't anything more she could do for me, I made the decision to drive.  With or without my doctor's approval.  After all, if I'm healed enough to no longer need nursing care for my not-quite-healed incision, then I should be well enough to drive.

Okay.  I realize this is not the same thing.  Especially, since I am not healed, fully. 

The trouble is, I have no idea when I will be fully healed.  Nor does anyone else, it seems.  Not my nurse, nor my doctor/surgeon.  No one. 

Only God.

At this point in time, only God knows what plans are in store for me.  Only God knows if I will require more surgery, or not.

And, with Christmas rapidly approaching, I thought I should just pray about the issue of driving.  Which I did.  And, made the decision to move forward and trust God.

After all, it seems to be that whether or not my incision is fully healed, I am still at risk.  Since no one knows what is causing the swelling, the redness/purple colouring and the pain.

The pain.

It is a pain, where you can't put a plaster.  Sorry for the not quite loving joke I just made.  But, it is a royal pain, not being able to do everything for myself, and having to rely on others.

Of course, the pain I experience isn't fun, either. 

There are days when I just feel pressure.  Other days, I have tenderness with a little amount of pain.  Then, there are other days, when I have great pain.  Like today.

Usually, I just take a deep breath and carry on doing very little.  But, as of late, I've been trying to get stuff done, that I didn't think I would be able to do.

So, how am I doing it?  By trusting in my Lord, every second of every day.

This reminded me of Psalm 20:7, "Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the Lord our God."

God told us to trust only Him.  Not man.  And, not in ourselves.

After all, our strength comes from the Lord.  At least, this applies to all God's children, who are trusting in Him.  Like me.  And hopefully, you also.

Until next time...

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