Wednesday, December 19, 2012

H. B. P! & Timing...

As I wrote in Life with Lynnie (LwL) yesterday, I had a very busy and disturbing day.  Today was no different.

In fact, I might even say that today was an even busier day than yesterday, in some ways.

One thing I praise God for, is that the real estate deal I was working on, came together.  Thank You, Lord!  I must say that His timing is always perfect. 

If it were up to me, things probably wouldn't have worked out the way they did, over the past couple of days.  After all, I was not in control over the timing of what I am facing, tomorrow.  Surgery, that is.  But, God is always in control... and He provided.  Thank You, Lord!

After completing paperwork and having to drive around town, I made my way to the hospital.  I was scheduled to attend the pre-admissions clinic, to be checked over and ensure that those who need my info, would have it.

After having bloodwork done, blood pressure checked, my heart checked, etc., I made my way back to my van.

Talk about being exhausted!

Could I go home and rest?  Absolutely, not!  You see, today is a family member's birthday.  My daughter, P!

Happy Birthday, P!

Eventually, I made my way to P's home.  We had dinner and celebrated P's birthday.  In the pic below, my daughter P is seated and surrounded (clockwise) by Z, K, D and S.

Happy Birthday, P!

I must say that this did my heart good being able to finally drive and celebrate a family member's birthday. 

Although, my grandsons let me know that they miss me baking birthday cakes!  Everyone's hoping I'll be able to lift baking equipment to be able to once again, bake and decorate cakes that my family enjoys.

Driving home, all I could think of was collapsing into bed.  After all, I only had about two and a half (2 1/2) hours sleep last night.  Stress?  Maybe. 

I believe it was more to do with thinking about everything I needed to do, today.  And, thinking about how long it will be before I am able to function even as well as I've been doing, lately.

Yesterday, the surgeon/doctor explained to me that after he opens me up, cleans me out and checks to see if the mesh has been affected, he will not be stitching me up.

My incision will be left open and I will have to heal from the inside, out.  This usually takes much longer than when stitches are used. 

A nurse will be cleaning and packing the open incision, daily.  For how long?  Only God knows.  But, it will probably be for a lengthy period of time, to be sure.

Great!  Off work, once again!

Arriving home, I realized that I needed to do laundry.  Even though I am not really supposed to be doing this, because of having to bend and lift, I did it, just as I did in the past. 

Like on my birthday.  Since I spent that day alone, I decided on that evening to do my laundry.  After all, being alone, there's no one to help me.  And, I just couldn't have left it any longer.

Just like back then, I got my laundry done, tonight!  Dishes, too!  And, paperwork that I will need within the next few days to complete the deal I've been working on.

Phew!  I'm exhausted!  Hopefully, I'll sleep well, tonight!

While I am rather sad about having this upcoming surgery, I am also grateful that God has provided for me.  I trust Him for everything in my life.  As, I'm sure you know.

And, His timing is always perfect. 

Of course, God told us in Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:  A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace."

I am praying that this is the time God will provide total, restorative healing for me.  Only He knows for sure.  But, I am trusting Him.  Just as I always do.

Of course, if it turns out to be God's time for me to die, nothing will change God's plan.  At least I know that because I'm trusting in Jesus Christ for my salvation, I will spend eternity in heaven, with Him.

Thank you, to all who are praying for me.  May God bless you.

Until next time...

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