Saturday, September 29th wasn't a personal special day, but it was special in some ways. As evening grew darker, the moon began to rise. It was then that I realized that it was the evening of a full moon.
September 29th, 2012 full moon view from my balcony.
Within a short time, I realized I wanted to take a pic of what I saw. After all, the moon's rays were glistening on the water, providing a gorgeous setting to look at.
It made me want to watch the movie, Moonstruck; so I did. It was during the movie itself, when I began feeling rather low in spirit.
And, not just because September 30th is a hard day for me every year, but also for another reason. It reminded me that I no longer have someone to love.
My now deceased husband, Gordon and I used to love looking out over the water, together. We used to love watching the moon, stars and the water glistening, together. But, he's not here with me, anymore.
Not only was I missing Gordon, but I realized that October 1st was coming. That's today.
Today, it is three (3) years since I heard Gordon's voice. Three (3) years, since he hugged me and told me he loved me. This evening, it will be the three (3) year anniversary of when he collapsed and was taken to hospital, prior to his death.
Why I'm having a hard time these last few days is beyond me.
I can only surmise that possibly, because I am feeling under the weather, recovering from surgery, my emotional state is affected. After all, when a person feels good physically, it's much easier to deal with life's trials and traumas, than when one is not feeling up to par.
But, still... I am grateful that God helps me. Every day. In every way. What do people do that don't have Him in their lives? I can only imagine.
Yes, just as He told us in His Word, in Psalm 50:15, "And call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me.", God delivers His children, who ultimately glorify Him.
We don't have to wonder what to do. God has told us in this passage, and in many others. We, who belong to Him, know and understand that we will have trials in life. We also know that when we call upon Him, He delivers us.
For this, I am thankful, and always will be.
If you're having troubles in life, make sure you bring them to the foot of the cross. Give them to our Lord. Just as I have done. Yes, I'm already feeling improved.
He will make a way where there isn't one... and provide for all your need. Just as He promised.
Then, glorify Him.
Until next time...
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