Be still my heart! After several hours of trying to open the screen where I can write/post an entry here on Life with Lynnie (LwL), I was finally able to do it! Believe me when I say that I am growing weary of this problem. I'm praying God will provide and heal whatever is causing this problem, here with Blogger.
If you've read recent entries, you'll know that not only am I recovering from surgery, but I am also feeling grief again regarding my husband, Gordon who died on the Saturday of our Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, October 10th, 2009.
A few days ago, my friend C, who was previously my co-worker/real estate partner, before having a stroke and retiring from the real estate business, spoke with me by phone. It was obvious that he had read LwL, for he made reference to the fact that it is the time of year of the anniversary of Gordon's death.
C's call was to let me know that I need to stop thinking about Gordon.
He said I shouldn't focus on him, so much. After all, he's dead, and won't be coming back.
Everything C said was absolutely true.
The problem is, that at this time of year, when the anniversary of Gordon's death is near, I cannot seem to stop thinking about him. What he went through. And, what I went through, with him.
It would have been easy to argue the point, but I didn't. Truly, with recovering from surgery, I really don't have the energy to argue with anyone.
Before my conversation with C ended, he mentioned that our Canadian Thanksgiving weekend is a sad time for him, also. Apparently, he and his wife had been married on the Saturday of our Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, with the date being October 8th.
Hmmm... As I listened, I wondered how he could even bring up the subject to me about not thinking about my husband, when he was doing the same thing concerning his wife, who died a few months prior to Gordon's death.
Even when C got all choked up and could hardly speak, I kept quiet.
After he finished talking, I commented that it seemed to be that we both had a hard time dealing with this weekend. And, we both felt we had two (2) days of sadness. The actual date, and the day of Saturday on the long weekend.
The reason I didn't retaliate his condemnation of me, even though he was experiencing the same thing I was, had to do with my love of Christ. And, the compassion I have for people, who are hurting. Yes, even C... after he condemned me.
In Zechariah 7:10 God tells us, "And oppress not the widow, nor the fatherless, the stranger, nor the poor; and let none of you imagine evil against his brother in your heart."
Doesn't that verse say it all? I'm grateful God placed it on my heart to not offend my friend, who was also widowed and suffering on this holiday weekend.
And, I'm grateful that God had placed it on my heart to not return the condemnation I had received.
That's just me. I'm not saying I am perfect, for I am not. There have been times when I have lost it, with someone who hurt me, but that is truly rare in my life. For this, I am grateful.
By the way, I want to thank you for praying for healing for me and for my daughter, B. I am truly grateful. May God bless you, friend.
Until next time...
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