If you've been a reader of Life with Lynnie (LwL) for a while, you'll be aware that both my parents have been dead for a long time.
However, lately I haven't been able to stop thinking about my mom. You see, today is the tenth (10th) anniversary of my mom's death.
How time flies!
It's hard to believe that it's been this long since I saw her face, heard her voice, or hugged her. It would be nice if I could turn back the clock, just for a few minutes. I'd hug her, kiss her, and tell her once again that I love her.
But, we cannot do this.
Once this day, minute or even second is past, it's gone. Never to return once again.
While I am grateful for memories, both good and not-so-good, it's not easy when I think of the traumas of life my mom endured.
She was a loving, but sometimes difficult person. Hmmm... maybe this is where I inherited my nature...
Of course, being a child of God, I trust God. His will is always done. And, He alone knows the plans for us, plans to help us and not harm us, to give us hope and a future.
Even so, life isn't easy. And, it's not kind.
I thank God that He sent His only begotten son, so that whosoever believeth on Him, should not perish, but have everlasting life.
And, I thank Jesus, my Lord and Saviour, for His obedience to God the Father, in fulfilling His plan of redemption for us.
After all, knowing full well what He would face when Jesus came to earth, He came in the likeness of sinfull flesh, to die on a wooden cross for us. And, be resurrected so that we can know that we can have eternal life, just as Jesus did. Simply by trusting in Him.
Of course, no matter how much time goes by, my heart still aches for my mom. I wish I knew for sure, if she was in heaven. But, I am trusting Him that she is there, waiting for me. After all, it only takes faith of a tiny mustard seed.
In the meantime, I just have to take a deep breath, give my heartache to God, and leave it at the foot of the cross. If we don't do this, we cannot move forward.
And, we need to redeem the time.
In Ephesians 5:15-17 we are told, "See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is."
Yes, we need to lift our heads from the sorrow of life, stand upright, and walk. Trusting Him, while taking step after step, as we walk through life.
As God's Word tells us, the days are evil. All the more reason we need to understand the will of God, and trust Him, every step of the way.
If you were here Mom, I'd tell you I love you and miss you. It seems that a measure of grief, never ends.
Until next time...
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