Sunday, July 8, 2012

In Spirit and In Truth...

Today, is my Lord's day.  SONday.  A day of worship and of rest.

If you've been a reader of Life with Lynnie (LwL) for a while, you'll know that in the past, I went to the cemetary to visit my husband's grave, every Sunday.  A few months ago, this changed somewhat.

In April, when it became two and a half (2 1/2) years since my Gordon died, I realized I had to stop doing this.  Well, maybe not quite so often, because as long as I was making an effort to visit his grave on a regular basis, I just could not seem to put him in the past.

Not that I want to put Gordon in the past.  Truly, I'd rather have him here with me.  But, I realize it is not God's will for me and my life.  If it were, he'd be here with me instead of being in heaven with Jesus.

What I mean is, that as long as I concentrated solely on Gordon and how much I miss him, I felt like I just couldn't move forward with my life.  So, I've made an effort to not do this, on a regular basis.

Consciously, I ask myself if I truly want to go there.  My preprogrammed heartfelt answer to myself is most often yes, but knowing that it will truly serve no purpose, I have elected lately to answer myself with a resounding no.

Today wasn't one of those days though.  This morning I left home earlier than I have been recently on Sunday mornings. 

I made my way to the cemetary.

It took me somewhat longer than I anticipated, because although I knew there was road construction along Hwy. #3, I didn't realize that other roadways, leading me to that area, were closed.

Eventually, I arrived and stood along side Gordon's grave for the first time in a while.  Even though I thought of him and prayed to God, it didn't make me feel any better to stand there.  Even so, I'm glad I honoured him, by visiting his grave and my future resting place.

Afterwards, I made my way to worship at my church.  That's one thing I love to do.  Worship my God!  And, worship Him, I did.

I love honouring my Lord, as we are told in John 4:24, "God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth."

Hmmm... in spirit and in truth.  I must ask for prayer for a problem that I will be addressing, later this week. 

I am praying that God will lead me to do and say what He wills me, and to speak truth.  Thank you for this, friend.  May God bless you.  I appreciate your prayer, more than you know. 

Arriving home, I had to prepare myself for an afternoon of fun and food that was to take place on the deck of my apartment building.  Unfortunately, I'll have to tell you about it, tomorrow.  See you, then!

Until next time...

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