Friday, February 17, 2012

Bring It On!

As you may be aware, if you've been reading Life with Lynnie (LwL) entries, I spoke and sang at my church's 50+ group luncheon. 

For some reason, afterwards, I felt like I was once again becoming ill.  Either that, or the virus I had been battling, was leaving.  Only time will tell.

Throughout the evening, I felt absolutely exhausted.

In fact, as I sat in my comfy recliner chair, I once again, could not keep my eyes open.  The television progamme could not keep me awake.  Certainly, reading didn't, either.

Once I could finally wake myself up enough to feel alert, I made my way to bed.  I think I was asleep, before my head hit the pillow.  To be honest, I can't recall!  I was out, like a light.

And, did I dream!

As I have mentioned in some past LwL entries, ever since my husband died, I rarely dream.  Why this happens, I have no idea. 

However, when I slept that night, I dreamt like there was no tomorrow! 

While I do not recall everything about the dream, I recall that the situation I faced was rather stressful.  My husband, Gordon was not to be found after the beginning of my dream.  Somehow, it seemed I was lost and unable to find my way.

Every time I tried to find a way to access and exit, from where I was lost, I would try to make my way, but would find myself at another dead end.  Then, something happened to my rings.

My wedding and engagement rings, for some reason, broke.  They broke into pieces.  Pieces that I had trouble even finding.  Once I located some of the broken, missing pieces, I tried and tried to put my rings together. 

All this effort was all for nought.  No matter how I tried, it just couldn't be done.  My rings couldn't be healed and reformed back into their original state.

This may sound silly, but when I awoke on Thursday morning, I felt rather frustrated.  Thinking about this dream, I kind of related to my life.

My life is broken.  And, it cannot be put back together.  At least, my life, as I knew it, cannot be put back together.

Even so, I am trusting God.  I'm trusting that He has a plan for me.  After all, He told us in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

So Lord, whenever You are ready, so am I.  Bring on my future, please Lord!


Until next time...

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