Last week was quite a week for me.
Being rather upset throughout the past couple of weeks or so, I found myself feeling rather discouraged. No, I do not intend to write about the reasons why; at least not at this time.
Strike one (1): It's enough to say that although I fully expect to be treated badly by unsaved people, it was devastating to me, to be treated disgustingly bad by a fellow Christian, while in the midst of a business venture.
Strike two (2): This happened, when Strike one (1), changed course and escalated into something that even affected me with some of my church family.
Feeling rather down, I began thinking once again that I need to somehow change my life. One day, while on Facebook (FB), I posted exactly that.
Several responses showed up, rather quickly. Since I did not give any explanation as to why I felt I needed to change my life, it didn't take long for some people to errantly think I was feeling sorry for myself, being lonely due to widowhood.
No, I didn't correct anyone, because I truly didn't want to discuss the situation that was tearing me apart. Besides, what I posted was truly meant to be a rhetorical question.
However, as I said, I did receive responses. Some people were supportive, encouraging me. But, one person in particular goaded me on. For some reason, this FB friend seems to rarely be pleasant, kind or supportive; in fact, sometimes this person is downright rude and nasty.
Strike three (3): This day was somehow different. At first, I thought the person I just mentioned who seemed to goad me on, was being shockingly supportive, and insisted that I meet with them and other friends. But within 24 hours, and after having met them for the first (1st) time in real life, I knew for sure that the truth was, this person didn't have a kind word anywhere inside them, for me. In fact, even though I am partially disabled, this person relentlessly condemned me with regards to my disability, through FB's chat/message system, until I finally asked why they would even want to be my friend, if they hated me so much.
You may think I cancelled friendship with that person, but if you did, you would be wrong. It takes an awful lot for me to cancel friendship with anyone, even on FB, because I persevere through trials, in an effort to honour my Lord. Actually, since that day, this person has been much nicer towards me. Praise God!
Even though it was a lot to experience, all within a couple of weeks and considering Strikes one (1) and two (2) are still continuing on, it's okay. I know I'll make it through.
I just need to keep in mind that God told us to not put our faith in any man (meaning humankind). Not the unsaved, nor the saved.
To say my faith had been tested, is sincerely an understatement. Truly, I felt so low in spirit, I even thought about changing my life, to the point where I might actually move away from this area.
However, at the same time, there are those in my life, who I know can be trusted. These people, I would not want to discard, by moving away, from here. For these people, I am truly grateful.
Realizing this, and praying over those situations that were making me feel low in spirit, God provided for me. He restored my spirit. Thank You, Lord!
Although I still feel like I need to somehow change my life, I recognize that it will only happen in God's time. Not mine.
Oh, I have some good news, too!
If you look to the column on the right, next to where the body of Life with Lynnie (LwL) is written, scroll down and you'll see a section entitled, My Blog List.
In the list, you'll see a blog entitled, Blog Time with Alvin. Either click on the title on my blog list, or click on this LINK.
Alvin is a (FB) friend of mine, who is a true blessing. In my opinion, he's a solid Christian. And, he has begun writing a blog. As a new blogger, I pray that God will provide for him, in every aspect of his writing.
And, I pray that each of you will take the time to read Blog Time with Alvin, in addition to Life with Lynnie. May God bless you, friends.
Until next time...
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