Sunday, August 28, 2011

Sometimes I Cry...

As I mentioned a while back, I wasn't feeling my happy self, Thursday, August 18th; especially in the evening.

No, I am not perfect.  In this life, I will never be perfect.  Only once I am in heaven, will I be as perfect as God wants me to be.  Until then, I am an imperfect person, living in an imperfect world.

Yes, I sometimes feel that old pang of grief.  It's not always easy looking at four (4) walls, never having anyone to speak with, unless your phone rings, or you dial someone else's number.  It isn't easy, knowing you'll never again see the person you love; in my case, Gordon.

Life isn't easy, but God is good.  He helps me, daily.  He lifts me up, encourages me, just as I try to do with others. 

For example, on Facebook (FB), I find myself encouraging people, regularly.  It's a hurting world out there.  People's lives are not always filled with happiness and laughter, even if they have joy in their lives, brought by trusting Jesus, for everything in their lives.

Here is a song I came across recently, that kind of hit home, for me.  Obviously, other people felt this way, too, because there has been over 100,000 hits on this Youtube clip.  It's called Sometimes I Cry, by Jason Crabb:

I hope you enjoyed this song.  I do.  It certainly doesn't describe all moments of my life, although it sort of describes me and some moments in my life.

Aside from feeling like I haven't had enough sleep lately, something happened to kind of feed this rather low feeling.  In an effort to feel better, I saw the movie Crazy Stupid Love.  Since I enjoy romantic comedies, I thought this would cheer me up.  It didn't.

In fact, I felt worse after watching this movie.  Oh, please don't misunderstand, it wasn't the movie; it was me.

I enjoyed the movie, but I cried through much of it.  The storyline burdened my heart.  I don't want to ruin the movie for you, especially if you haven't yet seen it.  And, I hope you do see it, because it was a good movie.  Just not good for me, on that particular day.

There was parts of the movie that involved sin.  Of course, unsaved people or those who don't really mind watching worldly movies, might not have noticed, but I did.

These days, movies can be very life-like in some ways.  Filled with sin, I mean.  Just like our lives; or, at least the lives of some people.

Until next time...

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