Last week, I suffered with neck and shoulder pain. Well, I'm happy to say that I am feeling improved. However, when I awoke today, I had some pain where I haven't had pain in a long time. In my heel.
Okay. You are probably thinking to yourself, that I am complaining about nothing. Firstly, I must say that I am not complaining, but rather am just stating a fact.
It has actually been a long time since I experienced heel pain. You see, it can be caused from a couple of reasons. Firstly, it can be as a result of the neck and shoulder pain I suffered with last week. Or, more importantly, it could be a sign or a symptom of a flare-up.
Both spring and fall are the most severe times for pain and suffering from someone like myself, who is arthritic. Spring and fall are also the most common times for someone like me, who has Ankylosing Spondylitis (AS), to have a flare-up.
You need to know that I don't have to do anything to have pain. In fact, I always have pain. The question isn't whether or not I have pain, but rather, how much pain do I have.
Because I have the complication of Iritis, which not everyone with AS has, even the idea of having a flare-up, can be frightening. Flare-ups not only bring with them more inflammation, but if the inflammation level rises in my eye, bringing on the Iritis condition, then I am at risk of losing my eye. I've been on the verge, many times since originally having this problem arise.
I have to remind myself daily, that God is in control. That if He wills me to be okay, I will be; if He wills not, I won't be. I also remind myself that God told us not to fear, nor be afraid, for He is with us always, even 'til the end of the age (Isaiah 41:10).
So, every day, I trust in Him.
You've heard me say before that I am tenacious; I don't give up easily. Nor will I allow pain to interfere with my life, unless it is totally debilitating. After all, AS is a Rheumatoid Arthritic, auto-immune disease. If I let it, it could totally destroy my life.
Yes, I sometimes feel rather down in the dumps from time to time, much like anyone who battles chronic pain and disease. But, I also know that my attitude towards this condition makes it a situation where I can allow it to destroy me, or not. I chose not, a long time ago, when I was diagnosed.
I also know that if I don't keep moving, it is not only possible, but highly likely that I would end up wheelchair bound. So, pain or no pain, I try to keep moving.
Consequently, I went to exercise even though I was in pain. My friend/trainer wasn't happy with me. She felt I needed to rest.
Even so, I worked out. This afternoon, there was a period of time when I could hardly walk, but even so, I managed.
Please, if you can find it in your heart to pray for healing for me, I would appreciate it. I know that I must rely on God to help me, especially since I not longer have the love of my life with me, to help me in my times of need.
Thank you. May God bless you.
Until next time...
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