Sunday, January 30, 2011

Shocking?! (continued...)

Yesterday, I left off writing about how shocking it was for both my friend L and me, that no one from our church family who was widowed, either visited or called us.

L was shocked when I told her that she was not alone, for she had commented to me that not one widow had called her.  Still, the truth is the truth. 

God's word tells us to be supportive of each other. That we need to love each other.

On the surface, one might think this was a very unloving thing to do.  Not having a widowed person from our church family call or visit, I mean.

However, after having several conversations with L and after visiting with her, I think I understand better why church-sister widows did not come along side me.  Why our church-sister widows didn't come along side of L, either.

Truthfully, it is very draining, emotionally.

Everything my friend L spoke of, I could relate to. Our conversation brought back so much pain for me.  Those familar feelings of brokenheartedness once again rose to the surface.

As we were conversing, there were times when I had to hold back tears, not wanting to make a fool of myself.  After all, it has been over 15 months, since Gordon died.

My heart actually ached with pain.  I felt like tears were running down inside of me.  Part of me wanted to just tell my friend L, that I had to leave.  Part of me wanted to run out of her apartment.  Run, to escape from feeling this pain, once again.

Even so, I am grateful to my Lord, that He gave me the strength to show some support to my friend and church-sister L, in her time of need.

And, even though none of my church-family widows came along side of me in the worst part of my time of need, I am grateful that God gave me a beautiful previously-widowed friend, in addition to all my regular friends, who understood me and lifted me up, regularly.

As I mentioned yesterday, my friend M, who battled breast cancer and who has been remarried for several years now, was truly a blessing to me. She is the only friend I have who has been widowed.  If I haven't formally thanked you M, for all your loving support, I would like to take the time to do this, now.

Thank you, M. May God bless you, now and always, for not just being my friend and encouraging me, but also for being obedient to God's calling.  Thank you for the love and support you have given me; you and your husband.

Thank you, to my friends, both single and married, who have been so very supportive of me, all this time.  Showing me love, care, concern.  Lifting me up, in prayer and friendship.  Always being there, for me.

I would try to list each of you, but if I forgot one of you, it would break my heart and maybe yours, too.  So, I will just thank God for each of you.  I could never thank you, enough.

May God bless you, now and always.


Until next time...

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