If you've been a long-time reader of Life with Lynnie, you'll know that I sometimes wake up with a song on my heart and in my voice. Over the years, I've come to realize that there are times when God speaks to me through the music in my head and heart.
About three (3) weeks ago, I began waking up with music in my head. Unlike other occasions, when I recognized the music and knew the lyrics, this time I didn't.
The first day it happened, I thought 'oh well!', thinking the name or lyrics would come to me later in the day, but instead the music left me. Then, I couldn't recall even the tune. Strange.
What's even more strange is the fact that this happened to me day after day, after day. I almost felt like I was participating in a repeat performance of Groundhog Day, only with Christian music playing in my head.
After close to two (2) weeks of this, I decided I would ask my friend J, who plays piano and is musical, if she recognized the melody, but until the Sunday after my childhood friend blocked me on FB, I wasn't able to contact her while I still had the music in my head. For, daily it would leave me, shortly after waking.
Last Sunday was indeed, the last morning I awoke with the song in my head and on my heart. Together, we discussed the music; I hummed it for her. She said she thought she recognized the melody too, but couldn't think of it's name. We both searched and eventually found out what the music was. Thank you J, for all your help; I appreciate you and your efforts to help me.
Once I found out the name of the song and researched the complete lyrics, I understood why God had put this music on my heart.
You see, not only had my childhood friend de-friended and blocked me on Facebook (FB), but I found that there were times when I had troubles with a few other 'friends', who really did not like me promoting God/Jesus quite so much. In addition, some people couldn't understand my wanting to promote Jesus and/or educate people about Islam.
While these things don't usually affect me, because I realize that we are not all on the same page, it truly affected me (as you can tell) about my childhood friend, for this friend has a Christian background and I had felt bewildered as to why there would have been any problem at all, never mind one that would permanently end the friendship.
As the friendship had been deteriorating, I had questioned God about this, asking Him if I should back off and stand quietly in the background, instead of speaking up, even if I felt it was the wrong thing to do.
In any case, I realized that the message to me from God, was to not consider changing me. That I should continue on as I had been doing. I think when you see the title and lyrics below, you'll agree.
Let The Lower Lights Be Burning
Brightly beams our Father’s mercy,
From His lighthouse evermore,
But to us He gives the keeping
Of the lights along the shore.
Let the lower lights be burning!
Send a gleam across the wave!
Some poor struggling, fainting seaman
You may rescue, you may save.
Dark the night of sin has settled,
Loud the angry billows roar;
Eager eyes are watching, longing,
For the lights along the shore.
Trim your feeble lamp, my brother;
Some poor sailor, tempest-tossed,
Trying now to make the harbor,
In the darkness may be lost.
After praying about the lyrics and the message God was sending me, I realized that He wants me to continue being a bright light, in a dark world, as His Word, the Bible teaches, in Matthew 5:14-16.
One more thing I must mention, is the fact, that God knew how I would be feeling about this, even before I did. He knew I would question my work for Him, even before I did. That is why He allowed me to awaken each morning, with the music on my heart, in my head and in my voice. I believe He wanted me to recognize this, for once I actually found out the message, this same morning music stopped and has not returned, even once.
I suppose it was no longer needed, once I got the message! In addition, I believe He wanted me to recognize that the message was a direct answer to receiving the persecution of losing an important friend.
Now comes another dilemma. I awoke today, with music once again that I cannot recognize. Like before, it left my mind, once I was fully awake. I can only suppose, that God has another message for me. Lord! I pray this doesn't mean another heart-breaking trial in my life, is about to happen!
Time will tell.
Until next time...
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