Monday, August 2, 2010

Truth Revealed...

About 1:30 am, I got to sleep last night.  The funny thing is, I don't remember waking up, until morning.  This is an improvement!

Before I forget, yesterday was quite a day.  Something happened that was very surprising, but made me happy.  My brother B, called me.  I think I've mentioned previously, that he's quite secretive about his life.  I don't know where he lives or how to reach him, except by his hotmail address.

It's quite awkward for me, at times.  Like a few years ago, sitting across from him at a restaurant, letting him know that I was sorry his birthday card/gift was late, but I didn't have an address to mail it to, and getting a response of him just changing the subject.

This year, I sent B an e-card on July 26th, his birthday.  What else could I do?  I still have his card/gift, here at home.  Oh well, such is life!

B didn't really call to chat.  He wanted to let me know that our baby brother Glenn's apartment is now gone.  We really only spoke for a couple of minutes.  Still, I was glad he called me.  Hopefully, God will bless this relationship.

At least I've heard from B.  To date, I have yet to hear from my sister, S.

Today, is Civic Holiday.  For some people, today is a holiday, but not for all.  With our real estate market being slow, here in Windsor, I feel like it's holiday time, quite often!

Seriously, today I just relaxed.  Didn't do much.  Played and updated on Facebook (FB).  Read blogs.  Had a great conversation with my friend V, who I hadn't spoken with for a while.  Watched television.  Exercised in the pool.  Pretty much just took it easy.

Right now, I'm watching The Bachelorette.  Why?  I don't know.  There certainly isn't much on television, these days.

As I mentioned yesterday, I think God is cleaning me out.  I believe that in the condition I've been in since Gordon died, I am not good for much. 

While I am grateful for good friends, I realize that not everyone is supportive of me.  That's okay.  God knows my needs and provides for me, always.

Just as when I divorced in 1978, God revealed truth to me as to who my friends were and who really weren't.  It's amazing how He can make something good come out of something so horrible. 

He's been doing it again, since Gordon's death.  He's been showing me who is for me, and who is not.  He did promise us that truth would always be revealed.  Although it is painful, I am grateful.

I must say that I have enjoyed reading this one blog in particular:  European Adventures.  Gordon and I truly loved visiting and exploring Europe, together.  We had hoped to do exactly what this couple did:  tour Europe in an RV.

It was exciting reading about their adventures visiting all the places we had hoped to visit.  Even so, it was heartbreaking for me, at times.

It seems that life is just filled with broken dreams, at this point in my life.  Missing Gordon.  Missing Glenn.  Feeling like my life is over.

That's okay, Lord.  You're in control of everything in my life.  Though You slay me, yet will I trust You.


Until next time...

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