Before I forget, I would like to take a moment and wish my older brother B, a very Happy Birthday! May God bless you with a love-filled birthday and a happy & healthy year ahead! Luv ya!!
It was about 1:00 am, when I shut off my lamp. Sleep came, but not quickly. However, I did manage to get a good night's rest!
Being a work day, I did what I needed to do, but it did not take a full day. My real estate partner/friend C was tied up, so we put off some of what we had planned to do today, until tomorrow. The reason? His daughter J, is in hospital. She has many health problems, including a brain tumour. Apparently, she is jaundiced, due to 'whatever' affecting her liver. Today, she was transferred temporarily to another hospital to have a liver biopsy.
I've spoken about this before. I mean, about how a liver can be damaged by other sources than alcohol abuse, including by inflammation.
Please pray for J. She has been in and out of hospital now, for several weeks. Her marriage fell apart more than a year ago. She has two (2) young sons that need her. Thank you, for your prayer. May God bless you, richly.
Last night, after writing my entry, I entered a Christian Prayer Chat Room. There was a person in there who was talking about committing suicide; she didn't have much knowledge of the Bible. Many of us chatted with her; hopefully, she is okay. Please pray for her and all who have considered suicide. It is terrible when anyone, especially a Christian, is so overwhelmed that they would consider suicide.
This brings up pain in my life. No matter how much I cry, no matter how much pain I am in, no matter how overwhelmed I have felt, I would never do that. Of course, many people don't even know what they would do if they found themselves feeling like their life was worthless.
It was heartbreaking for me to watch my husband Gordon, when he was feeling this way. Between his declined health caused from his inoperable brain tumour, lack of available treament and all the suffering he experienced, he prayed daily that God would take him home. Some of how he self-medicated partially contributed to his life problems and maybe even his death, but I can honestly say I don't know how I would deal with his situation, if I had been in his shoes.
What I do feel is pain, from realizing that I couldn't help him. I feel/felt so inadequate. I wasn't enough for him. I couldn't help him even deal with his depression. No medicines, no treatment, no support = no hope, for him.
Praise God, for the wonderful support I have felt from friends, especially since family support is lacking. I am grateful to God, for all the trials I have experienced in my life, even if I have hated them. I know that without experiencing all the tragedy, I would not have grown as close to God as I have.
However, not everyone has even support from friends. Some people's lives are so filled with tragedy, it's heartbreaking, especially if they don't have a close relationship to God.
If I've heard people speak like this, I am sure you have, too. Some people honestly believe that tragedy is a result of not living right. Sometimes, this is the case, but not always. Even if it is the case, the person needs the love and support of anyone who is willing to give it. I call it, the love of Christ, that lives within those who belong to Him.
Today, I had a really sorrowful day. As a matter of fact, for about an hour this afternoon, I couldn't do anything but cry. Yes, I went to the pool to do my exercise, but even that didn't lift me up. I praise God, for the support I receive even from Facebook (FB) friends and the Christian sites I receive information from.
I cry out to Jesus to help me, ALWAYS. God always seems to know my need before I do, but then, He did tell us He knows the end from the beginning. While I have always enjoyed listening to Dr. David Jeremiah, on FB I am a fan, so I receive updates automatically, daily.
Dr. Jeremiah was speaking today, about Job. Amazing, how God just knew I needed to be reminded about the story of Job. If you haven't read it, please do so.
Just listening to his broadcast lifted me up. Praise God! Thank You, Jesus! I'm blessed. I know it.
Until next time...
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