Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Government Issues and God Issues...

The photos above are of my baby brother Glenn, who died July 1/10 and was buried last Saturday, July 10/10 in Kitchener, ON. As you can see, one is of Glenn as an infant; wasn't he a beautiful baby?! The other is undated, but had to have been taken at least seven (7) or more years ago, because it was taken prior to him losing his legs, due to diabetes complications.

I love you, Glenn. Always did; always will.

Yesterday, I finally managed to locate all information Canada Revenue Agency (CRA) Income Tax Division requested I provide to them, so they can close out Gordon's tax account.

About a month ago, I got a letter from CRA, notifying me that even though I sent them all info I had on hand, it wasn't enough. Talk about frustration! At the time I received this letter, I was so very upset, that I could hardly look at it, never mind think about it.

But, think about this letter, I had to do. CRA notified me I had to provide the requested information within 30 days. Sigh... In order to comply, I had to request information be sent to me from the lawyer I had been working with, concerning Gordon's estate. Even after I received the paperwork, I was so-o stressed I could hardly even think about it.

As I mentioned, yesterday I managed to complete the file and take it to CRA, here in downtown Windsor. To be honest, it was a better experience than what I expected. The woman at the counter didn't know what to do with some of the paperwork and couldn't answer my question as to what to fill in on the form, so she contacted another person.

This other person, Christine, came downstairs to meet with me. She too, is a widow; her husband died four (4) years ago. She was very patient and helpful. In fact, she checked on other information that was sent to me, to ensure there wouldn't be any problems. Everything appeared fine.

Hopefully, this will be the end of my stress with CRA, concerning Gordon. Just thinking about him dying, still makes me fall apart. How can I put him in my past and move forward with my life, when I'm constantly being reminded or stressed about my loss? At least, if this is accomplished, it will be one less stress to contend with.

Lord, I know You help me, every day. But, still, I feel awful. I'm beginning to think I will never feel better. I know I just have to trust God. I do. Every day.

Last night I slept well. So, why was I so very tired, today? Maybe it's because the night before last, I didn't sleep more than a few minutes. Or, maybe it's because of all the stress I've been experiencing.

In any case, this afternoon I could hardly stay awake and actually dozed off in my recliner chair. Eventually, I went and slept for an hour in bed! I just hope I sleep, tonight!

As you know, I am still not feeling well. Although, I must say I am greatly improved. At first, I thought it began with allergies, but after talking with so many people who were sick like I have been, I am now thinking it wasn't allergies at all, but rather, a virus. In any case, I wish it would hurry up and leave, totally! I'm not only tired of being sick, but like most people, I have things I need to be able to do, that I haven't been able to function well enough, to do!

Knowing I was feeling so rough, I never worshipped at church on Sunday. Not the morning service, nor the evening service.

However, this evening, I attended a prayer group meeting. This was the first time I was able to participate. Not everyone was in attendance, but we had an enjoyable time, talking and praying for each other, others and for concerns we listed to pray about throughout the week.

I praise God for bringing my friend A and her husband K, into my life. In the past, I've mentioned that A was previously my prayer partner; we are extremely good and close friends. A's Mom may have to return to Jamaica, next month. Hopefully not, but they are still waiting to hear from an immigration lawyer, as to the best course of action to take, to enable A's Mom to be able to come and live permanently, in Canada. If you believe in prayer, please pray for this family. Thank you. May God bless you, richly.

Until next time...

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