Friday, June 18, 2010

Trials and Blessings...

It seems no matter how hard I try, I just cannot seem to be able to get to sleep early. It was close to 2:00 am, before sleep came to me.

Since I had my Chiropractic adjustment yesterday, I planned to take it easy, today. After all, once my body has been adjusted and is in the best shape it can be in, why would I want to go against what my Chiropractor advises. It would only lead to my body slipping back into the condition it was in, before my adjustment! So, today was a rest day, for the most part. I still had to do what I had to do. However, I didn't schedule anything taxing on my body. So, inbetween doing my routine, I spent time on Facebook (FB).

A couple of days ago, a young man P, asked to become my friend; I accepted, because he is the son of a couple who used to be friendly with my parents, even though they are basically my age. You see, the father of this fellow used to coach minor league hockey with my Dad.

After messaging on and off, P suggested I request his Mom A to become my friend on FB. So, I did! Today, I found A had become my friend and had left a comment for me on my wall. I responded and we messaged off and on, through the day.

Tonight, I found that P's sister, A's daughter, also became a friend of mine on FB.

Thank You, Father! May we all be blessed, by this reunion of sorts.

Another friend on FB left a comment for me. I responded to C's comment and we too, messaged each other throughout the day. C has experienced greater loss than I have, for she not only lost her husband nine (9) years ago, she also lost her child.

My heart breaks for her. Just dealing with being estranged from one of my daughters and dealing with grief from losing my husband, is stressful and difficult at times, for me to deal with. My heart goes out to C. Honestly, I know God has helped her through this trial, just as I know He has helped me through mine, for without Him, neither of us could have ever survived.

Sometimes, I feel God speaks to me through preaching/teaching. Today, Pastor/Rev. Mark Brown of The Bible and some other pages on FB, who at the moment is visiting in New York City, once again spoke to my heart.

Since Mark is not at home, but is travelling, he has become acutely aware of how hard it is to be able to function, while experiencing stress and lack of sleep. And recently, he has been been discussing this.

Although I am not happy he is suffering this trial, I am happy that I can see I am absolutely normal, for the effects he says it is having on him, is about the same as it's having on me.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm doing all I can to survive and even overcome, but unlike Mark, there are other times, when I feel so low, that I feel I must be a terrible disappointment to God.

In my heart, I know I am not a disappointment to God. But, there are times, when my head tells me this. At those times, I have to remind myself that I am not in control of my life; God is. All I can do, is what I can do. Pray, read my Bible, trust in God and His Word, and believe that Jesus loves me.

With Father's Day coming on Sunday, I realize that once again, I'm feeling rather bummed out. This will be another first in my life without Gordon.

While Gordon was not my father, I always celebrated Father's Day with him, the way he celebrated Mother's Day, with me. Especially since, we had severe family problems and estrangements to deal with. Only, this year he won't be here.

Usually, we would visit the cemetary, together. We would visit his parents and grandparents graves. This year, it will be only me...visiting Gordon's grave, in addition to the others.

Since I live so far away from Mississauga, where my parents are buried, I don't get to visit their graves, very often. However, whenever I am in that area, I make sure I go.

It's close to bedtime, but I have an errand to run; I'll tell you about it, tomorrow. I'm sure it will give you a great laugh! So, be sure to tune in or click on, or whatever you want to call it, once again, tomorrow! Thank you for reading.

Until next time...