Thursday, April 8, 2010


Last night, I was so-o tired. Until I went to bed, that is! It's gotten to be a bad habit, not being able to sleep.

Oh, I try. Usually, I read my Bible (I try to read my Bible completely, over the course of one year, or less), until I am tired and feel my eyelids drooping. Being this tired, you'd think that I would be able to drift off, quickly. Nope. Inevitably, sleep does not come. Instead, like some miracle, my eyelids open, I toss and turn and cannot drift off to sleep.

Prayer. Wow! Have you ever prayed so much that you feel like you cannot stay awake? I have! After thanking God for this, I once again close my eyes, expecting to be in 'never never land', within seconds. Nope. Same thing happens. Eyelids open, brain wakes up and I'm up and running, again.

Over the last few months, I sometimes lay in bed, quietly shedding some tears, so that I don't disturb any of my neighbours. This should wear me out, in my opinion. Nope. Usually, at this point I get up, have a sip of water and return to bed, confident that I will be able to nod off. After all, by now it is quite late; usually the middle of the night. Nope.

Once again, I get up. Convinced that I am just not going to sleep, no matter how tired I am, I may/may not take an asprin, for sometimes this will help the situation. Once seated in my recliner chair, sometimes I read. Sometimes, I watch television; not much programming is interesting in the middle of the night!

Of late, I've been watching a movie on VCR tape or on DVD; there's a couple of movies that I have found comforting, so I've watched these, repeatedly. By the time the movie is over, I actually feel exhausted to the point of collapse. Of course, the clock reads time when most people are getting up, not heading to bed! Usually, between 5:00-7:00 am.

My alarm was set for 7:15 am, this morning. Since it was after 5:30 am when I climbed into bed and found I could drift off, it was to be a short night. Actually, it got shorter, for I woke up at least four times that I recall, worried that I would be in such a deep sleep that I would miss my alarm and sleep in. Wouldn't that be horrible?!!!

By the time my alarm sounded, I just could not make myself get up. Since the seminar I was to attend wasn't part of my continuing education required for my licencing, I decided to reset my alarm and not attend.

Was I able to enjoy a restful sleep? Sort of. For a little while! Before 9:00 am, my friend B, called. Within a few minutes afterwards, C called. Almost immediately afterwards, a realtor/friend M, called. Did I speak with any one of these people? No. With each call, I asked if I could call them back.

Then, the worst happened. I couldn't get back to sleep. Okay! Okay! I got the hint. I should have just gotten up as planned and forced myself to go to the seminar. At least I would have felt like I accomplished something, this morning!

Oh well, lunchtime made up for it. I met my friend A, at East Side Mario's. We had a wonderful time of interesting conversation, good food and Christian fellowship. I've known A for many years. Through working at real estate, actually.

There was a time when I did a lot of commercial work, including sales, leasing and sales of businesses. A worked at a hotel, here in Windsor, where I had been hired to do leasing. We hit it off and became friends. I feel like part of her family, for even her son and his family treat me like I belong with them! Praise God! Thank You, Jesus!

We've been friends through thick and thin. Good times and not so good times. A became a widow about three years ago; her husband B, was a good man. We have a lot in common. I love her, dearly. I'm blessed knowing her.

Today, A paid our bill. Thank you, A! It wasn't as disasterous as per usual lunches, for I had a coupon for a free lunch and together, we had a coupon for a free dessert. Normally, we don't have dessert, for we believe that neither of us need it! :-)) Still, it was a delicious end to a wonderful time, together.

Of course, life carries on, even after enjoyable times, so I just carried on with my daily duties.

Tonight, I'm hoping it's Gods will for me to be able to literally collapse into bed and sleep, soundly. Is that your snoring, I hear???

Until next time...