Time is a funny thing. There are times when I feel like time is just flying by; it's hard to believe that Gordon died about three and a half months ago. Then, there are other times, when a day just feels like an eternity.
One thing is for sure, today is the first day of February. Today, is the beginning of 'love' month. If you are like me, you know several people who got married on Valentine's Day; I wasn't one of them. I've often thought, "How romantic!". Expensive, too (lol)!
Love never dies. I believe that. God tells us this in His Word.
But, what is love? Is it a feeling? Sometimes. Is it a choice? Definitely.
The love chapter in God's word is 1 Corinthians 13. It tells me that though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
Though I have the gift of prophecy and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove all mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely; does not seek its own; is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails.
This will be a difficult time for me, being the first Valentine's Day without Gordon. I made a vow when I married him, to love him for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness or in health, until death us do part. I know I truly gave my love to him, stood by him, loved him and cared for him, knowing that many others would have walked away. Did it change the outcome? No. I'm here, alone, lonely and without love. It may sound like I'm feeling sorry for myself; if so, I apologize. It's the truth and I'm sure it is just part of my grief and missing him. I will try to not focus on this for too long; God willing.
My prayer is that you will enjoy Valentine's Day and show the special person in your life, that you love them.
Until next time...