Yesterday's entry contained info regarding my first love. A facebook friend asked why I would write about this. I feel, why not?! While I have no idea if my first love will ever read my blog or not, it gave me a chance to talk about a good and innocent love, apologize to him for ever hurting him, and let him know that I will always love him. The way most people feel about their first love.
In addition, I mentioned my first husband. The marriage was not what I would call a marriage; it ended in divorce. What we really had was what I would call a whirlwind romance; not sexually, for we never had sex before our marriage. I have no intention of saying anything negative about him, but I will say that it didn't take long to realize he did not love me. If you knew him well enough to speak with him about this, he would (I'm sure) be honest and tell you so; he admitted this to my children.
However, something good did result from the marriage. I have two beautiful daughters.
When B was born, I was so very happy, for I truly wanted a daughter. Blonde hair and blue eyed, she was a real looker, even as a young child. Everywhere I went, people would stop me and tell me what a gorgeous child she was; some suggested she should do modelling.
When P was born, I was so very happy, again. While I thought she might have been a boy, because my pregnancy was so very different, I was happily surprised to find I had another daughter; darker blonde with blue eyes, she was a real looker, too. Again, people would stop me everywhere I went with her, to tell me how beautiful she was and what a gorgeous smile she had. Still today, she has a gorgeous and infectious smile.
Both my daughters are beautiful adults, who have children; one even has a grandchild. This makes me a grandma and a great-grandma. Believe it or not!
When Gordon became part of my life, he brought with him a son. While some people would call him a step-son, because he is not blood related, I call him, my son. It wasn't easy being a mom to him, for as with any subsequent relationship, there were problems, but they've been long since worked out. Praise God! Thank You, Jesus!
My son has children and grandchildren, so this makes an even larger family!
In total, I have three children, ten grandchildren, plus another one or two on the way. Oh, I can't forget the four great-grandchildren God has loaned me!
Due to family problems, I am not able to see all my grandchildren and great-grandchildren, but I do have a relationship with some; for this I am truly grateful. After all, they are only ours for a time. I'm trusting God for full and complete restoration of these relationships. And, I'm trusting that God's plan is for each one to come to know Jesus as their personal Lord and Saviour, at the earliest time.
Whether here or there, near or far, they are always my Valentines, and will always be in my heart. Know that I love you and always will.
Until next time...