Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Hide and Seek!

Several people told me today by phone, that it was cold outside. I'm sure it was, but I never found out for myself, for this was one more day when I stayed home and didn't go out.

Thanks to the resting I did over the last few days and the Traumeel tablets, there was less swelling in my knee and I could actually walk unassisted in my home, today. Unlike other days, I cannot say that I rested, because I really didn't. I meant to, but it just didn't happen.

It started when I decided I should prepare for a family birthday, by signing a birthday card I previously bought. Have you ever lost something and couldn't find it, no matter how much you searched? That was me and my problem, today.

In December, I wanted to prepare for 2010, because it's just my nature. And, in the back of my mind, I am still considering travelling later in the year; if I do, it may be through Christmas. After all, this past Christmas was very lonely for me and I have been thinking that I may travel this year, if my knee will allow me to.

Anyway, just in case I do travel later this year, I purchased family Christmas cards and Birthday cards for all my family, a few weeks ago. I had them all in one bag. The last time I saw the cards, I had them in my livingroom and had decided to put them 'away', because I was expecting son K and his family for dinner, in mid December. Whooeee! Away...they are!! No where to be found.

No matter how hard I tried to remember where I put the cards, I just could not recall. I racked my brain. Then looked; I felt like I was a child, playing 'hide and seek'. I came across some items and thought I should go through them; maybe they're here! Wrong. I tried again, finding another spot that I should clear out. Clearing out I did, but to no avail. No cards. Help!

Taking time out, I decided to relax and put my mind in another direction. I tried reconstructing my movements in December. I even prayed about it. On several occasions, I thought I recalled where the cards were put. Nope. No cards.

Oh well, at least I got a lot of 'cleaning out' done. Unfortunately, this has now created another problem, for I realize that I need to be doing spring cleaning and it isn't even spring! lol

Hopefully, before I truly am desperate for the cards, I will find them. If you have any ideas, please let me know! :-))

The blessing in this, is that my knee held up throughout all the walking and exercise I got while working and searching around home. Yes, it still hurts, but at least I could walk with it, unassisted! Tomorrow, when I go out, don't expect me to not use the canes, for I will have to battle some stairs and will need them, but I am grateful for the improvement! Praise God! Thank you, Jesus!

Actually, being home today, I was surprised at how often my phone rang. Between business calls and personal calls, much of my day was spent on the phone, in between cleaning out and searching.

Late in the afternoon, just after I sat down to rest, my phone rang; it was my friend, W. She invited me to dinner, tomorrow evening! Of course, I said, "YES"! In addition to W's husband and son, there will be another couple from church; we are all friends, who used to gather as couples, before Gordon died. It will be the first time I will have dinner with them in a group, since Gordon's death. We women had met for my surprise birthday luncheon, along with some other female friends, but no husbands were present. As everyone knows, this will be a year of many 'firsts', without Gordon. Lord, I'm looking forward to this gathering; please give me strength to deal with being 'alone', without Gordon. I don't want to feel like a fifth wheel or out of place. Thank you, Lord; I'm trusting in You.

This evening, I decided to watch American Idol. I haven't watched this show in a long time. It was a hoot!

It's hard to believe that so many people have the nerve to audition on camera, knowing that they can't sing. Oh well, I suppose it is a chance for some to have their 15 minutes of fame! For those who sing well, I think it is a fabulous opportunity to begin a career in music.

On a more personal level, when I was young, I had several chances for a music career. Unfortunately, stage fright prevented me from ever singing solo, if I knew anyone was watching me or listening to me. While I didn't know it then and do know it now, it was rather sinful, for fear is sin. God told us in His Word many times, not to fear or be afraid. He is with us always, even to the end of the age (Matthew 28:20).

It's funny, but now that I'm in Christ, I don't have that fear and enjoy singing to the glory of God at church functions and meetings. Lord, thank You for freeing me from the sin of fear.

Lord, You know I trust in You for everything in my life. If it is Your will, please put it on my mind where my cards are hiding, for I'm asking this in Jesus' name. Thank You in advance, Lord! Amen.

Until next time...