Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Cold Inside and Out...

Several people commented to me today, that it was really cold outside. Brrr. I'm sure glad I didn't have to go out!

Working mainly at home has it's advantages. Not going out in the cold is one of them. How do I do this? Well, it's not as difficult as you may think. With the equipment of today, the business of real estate is very different from when I began, twenty-two years ago.

When I first began, I had to go out to the office, daily. In order to put info in the hands of customers/clients, I had to physically drive to deliver info, even if they felt they were 'just looking'. It was a time-consuming part of my job, that was quite often, non-productive.

With the equipment of today, the only time I really have to leave home is for meeting with clients or showing property. Of course, in this depressed Windsor marketplace, it would be nice to do both more often, but at least I don't have to drive to the office and manually do research that takes a v-e-r-y long time to compile, in order to provide my contacts and clients with the info they require. I am looking forward to our spring market, that should 'spring into action', shortly.

At home, I am equipped just like at my office, with two fax machines (one being multi-functional printer, copier, scanner, etc.), another printer, my computer and of course, internet!

The internet has truly changed my work life from what it was many moons ago. Now, Windsor-Essex County Real Estate Board (WECREB) operates our board computer system as an intranet system. This means that I can access any/all info through WECREB from any computer that has internet access available.

By logging onto the system, I can access MLS info, registry info and all the paperwork necessary to do my job, including creating flyers, etc. E-mail has made it simple to send/receive info to customers/clients regarding properties.

All this technology has saved me time, energy, gasoline, wear-and-tear on my vehicle and has generally made my business easier. Like I said, I was glad I didn't have to go out in the cold, today!

Today, I was able to speak with my friend M, who had surgery, yesterday. I'm hoping that tomorrow, I'll be able to see her; if not, hopefully Friday. I was glad to hear she was doing well, even though she had pain, today. She planned to mostly rest, today; I was glad to hear it, because in my opinion, she needs to rest in order to heal and recover, quickly.

M is blessed to have her husband able to be home with her as well as her sister visit with her, for she is a retired nurse. Since these last two surgeries were essentially done as an out-patient, I am glad she has L with her, just in case a problem arises. Most of us would not have access to someone who has experience with issues that could arise. Thank you to those who have been praying for M; may God bless you richly, as you continue to pray.

In addition to grieving, I find myself feeling very lonely. I'm blessed to have caring people in my life, who love me and who want to help me through my grief, by keeping me busy. However, keeping busy doesn't take away the emptiness I feel in my heart and body. I still feel like I've been torn apart, physically. And, sometimes I feel the loneliness will kill me. Oh well, if it does, at least I know where I'm going. For a believer in Jesus, to be absent from the body, is to be with the Lord; so, I know I'll be in heaven with my Lord, when I die.

I came across a handout that I received last week at my grief support group. It talks about how shock is a normal feeling, as is denial, feeling like you're going crazy, feeling like your mind is in a fog, sadness, depression, feeling inconsolable. It tells us that even Job struggled with this; read it for yourself in the book of Job, in the Old Testament.

In closing, the sheet explains that even Christians grieve; that, "we too, will deny, hurt, weep, rage and even bargain with God. The difference is that we have HOPE." It reminds me to take it to the Lord and trust in Him, for as God's word tells us, all things are possible, including our healing.

Last evening, during dinner with K & C, C asked me if this grief counselling was helping me or if it was too soon for me to attend a programme like this one. My reply was that I really didn't yet know; only time will tell.

Meanwhile, I feel like I'm suffering with being lonely, feeling like my life is over. Feeling cold inside, no longer having someone to love and be loved by. I know God has a plan for my life; I just don't know at the moment, what it is. I'm praying He will reveal it to me, soon!


Until next time...